Jury Leave

妹妹麗口被法庭傳召當陪審團候選人。我立即著她向公司查問Jury Leave的安排。因為 Leave for Jury Service 在香港是有薪假，但妹妹受聘於港外公司，並長駐外地，所以應該認真查一查。

愛到濃時竟是酸楚之味

女子知道男子很愛她，雖然男子只肯用英文及韓文誓言「我愛你」。

女子知道男子很愛她，但千萬別愛她寵她到一發不可收拾，再會頭才發現自己已百年身，早期太用力去愛，後勁反而不能繼續雄風。噢，願主保佑這為男子。

女子知道男子很愛她，抱著她他有時感到一陣酸楚，擁她入懷但同時在費煞思量如何才可以令她的日子從此充滿並只見明媚的陽光。

能量是可以發送及接收的。女子感受到那種能量。女子代自己的父母多謝男子，多謝他如斯愛護他們的女兒。

女子說：「你有否覺得很神奇？」

男子答：「直情撞鬼一樣。」

同時間，感情蜜月期已過，女子及男子要好好為將來打算一下。Good planning is the foundation of everything.

It's automation, not automagic

一天跟一群 programmer 吃早餐，其中一位歎曰公司支援不足，他寫程式時遇上難題，只有靠自己。「那你會如何尋找solution呢？」我放下叉子，追問同事。「到 IBM 網站去找囉，或者上 IT forums。」同事饒有深意地看我一眼，我便笑說：「噢，而部份 IT forums，是被公司網路攔截了的。」眾人大笑。

我非程式員，但有時誤打誤撞也會到各IT forum閒逛一下。記得有一次在一個美國程式網站（Mainframe?），看見一個會員咬牙切齒地高呼“It's automation, not automagic!" 不禁芫爾。

多年前公益金的標語是「幸福非必然」，我活了一把年紀，實在知道世間物事就是非必然，很多事情是automation, not automagic。特別是感情親情友情，在其 automate 之前，必須下一番苦心，用一番功夫，善心細意去經營。

我一向幸運，之前尚會自負地一臉傲氣地說大家愛我，因為我可愛。但現在我比較勤謹，起碼會打電話跟妹妹們閒扯，起碼會多行一步關照別人，起碼會為你穿一身特別的褻衣。

Stripe shirt

常見的恤衫pattern中，我鍾情條子，並偏愛粉紅或粉藍襯幼白色間子。

身段美好的男女，穿上這種修身恤衫，最為養眼。

沒有V字倒三角形身段，但自是腹有詩書氣自華的男子，也可以來一件挺實的白襯衫，像翟紹唐一身簡約的黑白便叫我神往不已......幾時我會認識他真人呢？

歡愉

早期的亦舒作品裡常常提醒女子別太擔心三十大關，那不是世界末日，人人都會有三十歲--除非你要在廿九歲死去。

而亦舒作品亦甚少描繪男女纏綿細節，連個大畫面也沒有。【喜寶】一書中，無論是女主角跟年輕的丹尼斯，還是她跟年老的勗先生的上床情節，亦舒都是一步艦過就收檔。

我身為女子，隨著年紀漸長，卻是明暸身體內有很多東西在いきいき地滋長，對追尋肉身歡愉一事，更隨著三十歲的臨在，一天比一天不再狷介。

自然這肉身歡愉是一種快樂。錢鐘書的【論快樂】說他在舊書舖里買回來維尼（Vigny）的《詩人日記》（Journald'unpo te），信手翻開，就看見有趣的一條。他說，在法語里，喜樂（bonheur）一個名詞是“好”和“鐘點”兩字拼成，可見好事多磨，只是個把鐘頭的玩意儿（Silebonheurn'taitqu'unebonnedenie！）。錢鐘書聯想到中文的說法，也同樣的意味深永，譬如快活或快樂的快字，就把人生一切樂事的飄瞥難留，清楚地指示出來。

快樂來匆匆，去匆匆。所以快樂的事更值得我去磨研如何在有限找尋無限。較諸那些生活的死實事宜，比如說是交電費洗衫買賣股票之類，我更樂意花時間去探索男女情愛之事。

你這麼怎麼那麼

纏綿期間，你要我平日少著性感衣裳，我不依，頂嘴說：「我是我自己的。」你便一臉不高興。

纏綿過後我又想起「我是我自己的」，一石擊起千堆浪，我便哭泣起來。你擁著我問我怎麼哭了，唉，我時時無故哭泣。

「我是我自己的」固然有辣有唔辣，獨立自主得來蒼涼同是襲上眉頭；「我是你的」亦非神仙嘛哩嘛哩空，天地無常，我怎知道甚麼時後你或甚麼人會刀峰一轉，一巴掌㩒醒我話我知我不是你的；又或者甚麼時候你會跟爸爸一樣和我死別，「你」已不在，何從說起「我是你的」？

我的身體

我獨居的其中一個原因，便是我喜歡裸體在家走動。

我又一絲不掛的站在鏡前。讓我用文字描述自己：我158公分，43kg，大約七頭身的比例，脖子手腳幼長。我的膝蓋骨剛好承接上大腿和小腿的線條。我的骨架子輕，全身都很有肉地。我的胸部是倒覆的碗形，我的臀部是半滿月亮。

我很戀棧我的身體，我希望有一個人愛我的身體如我。我很享受愛撫。我的日子不能缺乏一個親密的伴侶，其實是我身體髮膚的需要。當然精神上的渴慕同樣重要。

爸爸離世後，我常常無故想念麗口和細細妹。麗口奇怪我的忽然緊張。我抱著自己的身體，知道這叫「骨肉相連」。

Picture: The Bleeding Roses by Dali

閒話家常

手下管理百多人的manager快離開公司，因為我欣賞他的能力，所以我今天打電話給他閒聊兩句。

「衰妹好番啦係嘛行得走得嘞下化。」

「你去到新公司坐定後記住約我呀！」

「得得得得得，你要我介紹男人俾你識丫嘛。」

「errrr i've met someone...」

「... 咁最緊要你鍾意。」

「... 咁最緊佢鍾意我。」

「咁串呀----」

Lingering VS roadmapping

I am really thankful that I got a chance to work with the IT people. I am always good at visualizing but not planning. The association with the IT people in the previous years indeed equipped me with an enhanced planning capability.

I asked him about the roadmap. He said he does bear a roadmap in mind however he would not unveil any detail of the great plan until the moments that the milestones on the timeline are close.

Actually it is not just about dates. It is about objectives and mutual goals. It is about getting aged gracefully, happily and peacefully, together with you.

I would like to lay the foundation of our future with unconditional trust, respect, love, faith and spice. I will try my every endeavor to prevent any negative happening. If something negative must happen, I will make every effort to confine the damage and conclude a positive interpretation.

I will never take you for granted. I shall appreciate and celebrate every moment. I shall take into account of every possible vulnerable spot and make an effort to secure our resilience. When a challenge approaches, I shall see it as an opportunity to review and fine-tune our alignment. We will have the learning curve, but we will be able to safeguard our way.

I understand intelligence is as important as appearance. I accept the fact that you shop your underwear at Giordano as long as you are fine with my Dior nightgowns.

Beth Katleman

Just cant stop watching and smiling.

A wall of...

You know I am keeping a wall of books and a wall of drawings. How about a wall of little sculptures?

But wait, I stop the fancy when I think about the dusting and cleaning. (I am practical afterall)

Check out Beth Katleman if you are enchanted and interested to know more about turning a plain wall into a three-dimensional art installation.

Joy is like the ring

You put the ring on my finger, Joy is like the ring.

Laughter runs across my pane,
Slips away and comes again.
Joy is like the ring.

I saw clouds upon a mountain, Joy is like a cloud.
Sometimes silver, sometimes gray,
Always sun not far away.
Joy is like a cloud.

I saw you in wind and thunder, you are tried by storm.
You asleep within my boat,
Whipped by wind, yet still afloat,
You are tried by storm.

You put the ring on my finger, Joy is like the ring.
Bit by bit that our love grows, never it will overflow.
Joy runs in the ring.

You need someone strong enough to influence you!

Someone:"You must push yourself together. Stand up and be strong."


70th:"How about we put a reward programme in place?"

Someone:"Sounds good. How about you give me the checklist items first?"

70th:"How about this..."


Someone:"I would like to define the priorities and implement a system of reward and penalty as the following:"


70th:"Evey single violation costs one penalty but it takes the whole month of compliance to get one reward... not fair..."