星期四, 9月 29, 2011

八號風球下

屋外四方八面都是咆哮叫囂的怪獸,驚醒了一個人睡的我。聽風急迫的腳步,聽樹葉兒躲避挨揍的卒卒碎碎,我心如鹿,不知所措。

我斟出威士忌,急急喝下,竟然嘔吐起來,一臉汗一臉淚。

我打電話給他,惺忪的他叫我乖去睡覺。

我獨自坐在屋子內,呷一口熱茶。熱茶的霧氣倒沒有昇起來。

星期日, 9月 25, 2011

[多少地才夠 ]

托爾斯泰的故事:主人翁是個辛勤工作的農夫,自耕自足,生活過得踏實。農夫為了擁有自己的土地,加倍的工作、加倍的辛勤,終於有了一塊屬於自己的地。土地愈來愈大,心頭也愈來愈高,他想要更多。他去到一個聞說土地極肥沃的地方,當地大地主應許農夫,承諾他從出發之處開始,日落前折返,無論他走得多遠,圈出的地有多大,農夫都能得到。多麼誘人啊!農夫徹夜末眠,太陽出來了就往外跑,中午該折返時因為想多走一里,三時該折返時因為想多走一里,不經不覺太陽已經下山了。農夫末能守諾折返,土地冇了,睡眠不足和中暑亦取去了農夫的生命。

多麼像人生以及男女關係。我心哀妤。





 俄國文學史最偉大的文豪之一,他的作品隨著歲月的消逝,不但沒有減弱它的光反倒其影響力愈來愈深遠。樸實的文字,人生深刻的體驗,召喚出人們內心裡最真誠的愛與幸福。托爾斯泰的作品如同他的幕該折返時因為想多走一里,,沒有宏偉的大理石和奢華的裝飾,沒有墓碑和墓誌銘,就連托爾斯泰的名字也沒有,只有幾棵蓊鬱的大樹在風中低吟著愛的詩篇。

星期五, 9月 23, 2011

男士侍產假

身為女性,法定爸爸有侍產假我舉腳贊成,除了由於我也有可能因為身為媽媽而受惠外,還有一個原因,就是這間接拉近公司聘請男女雇員的福利成本,進一步推動工作上的男女平等。

數年前人在中環老闆說過他對聘請某個年齡的女性有保留。嘿。

星期六, 9月 17, 2011

林嘉欣有齣電影叫 "Claustrophobia"

幽閉恐懼症

壓力終於在今天黃昏爆發。想速速逃離公司,印度人捉住我要我provide more input for the MI reporting. I did ask the same questions he were asking me

星期二, 9月 13, 2011

Outsourcing and offshoring

CM 寫外判。

大企業削減人力成本的方法有三:自動/助化、工序外判或把工序遷移到成本較低的地方。

我個人認為「自動/助化」乃企業進化,自然之至,亦避無可避。外判呢,短期成本肯定上漲,長期亦不一定有著數之餘,還有一個危機,就是整整下全世界都依賴某些服務供應商,你睇下 Big Four,你又睇下Taleo。

反而 offshoring 更是我杯茶,一來夠挑戰性,蝦,個營運模式要點先可以統一服務水平?蝦,咁十年廿年後offshore基地經濟起飛後又點呢?

星座與你

September 2011
Congratulations, Scorpio! You're really growing in matters of the heart. That's because Jupiter, planet of expansion, is well into its yearlong tour of Taurus, your relationship sign. Jupiter entered Taurus on June 4, making normally risk-averse Scorpios loosen those ironclad boundaries. You may have opened your mind to a new "type" or stepped up into a more supportive role in your current relationship. Because Jupiter rules long-distance travel, you may have fallen for someone from a faraway city or even country! Optimistic Jupiter blesses you with a spirit of adventure and the willingness to try anything once. Now, it's time to pull back just a little bit. From August 30-December 25, Jupiter slows down to retrograde motion, a time that's best used for reflection. Sure, you felt a soulmate connection with that eHarmony guy you've been IM-ing every day. But he lives in Maui and you're in Minneapolis. So...is one of you gonna move? How realistic is this-and if it doesn't make immediate sense on paper, are you both willing to uproot your lives to be together? Perhaps you've sacrificed some of your usual standards for the good of the relationship, like our Scorpio friend who swapped her posh, condo-style apartment to move into her boyfriend and his roommate's dingy fifth-floor walkup. It's definitely improved their relationship to live together (and her rent is so cheap it's almost criminal). But the lack of privacy, charm, and a decent local grocery store is starting to wear on our friend, who loves to cook gourmet meals and flounce around in sexy lingerie. Jupiter retrograde poses the challenge: how much compromise is too much? The September 12 Pisces full moon is a good day to get this out into the open. Pisces rules your passionate, expressive fifth house, and it's a fantastic day to confess a crush or just talk openly with your sweetie about how to make the relationship more romantic, exciting, and workable for you both. Sexy Scorpios have needs-all kinds of them-and you can only sacrifice to a point before you want to explode. The fifth house also rules fertility, so this full moon supports any Scorpios who are trying to conceive. In need of closure? (Let's face it, you're a Scorpio, so there's always somebody you're obsessing or ruminating over.) On September 27, the new moon, Sun, Mercury, Venus AND Saturn are all in Libra, your twelfth house of endings and release. This part of the zodiac rules what's been hidden, so things that have been kept secret could come to light. If you've been wondering whether someone is trustworthy-or just worthy at all-meditate on this at the Libra new moon. Evidence one way or another will definitely reveal itself if you make that your intention. For some Scorpios, this new moon cycle may just mean that you begin a period of greater emotional transparency. Scorpios tend to be uber-private, but if you don't let down your guard a little, nobody will ever see your most vulnerable and lovable parts. YOU may fancy yourself a mind reader, but most other people aren't quite so intuitive. Don't wait around for them to guess how you really feel or make getting to know you harder than a "Where's Waldo?" game.


好悶呀呵?這個下午好悶呀!

星期日, 9月 11, 2011

幸せになる

這這你令我覺得幸福。

幸福,好滋味!

Priority for the time being

運動型的男人行事果然迅速。他叫我坐在他辦公室等等,廿分鐘後他回來。其間原來他已經穿梭中環兩間大廈,完成一連串的工作。

我上他公司前跟同事在我們公司的酒吧喝酒談天,傾傾下Head of XYZ 笑言不如我調往廣洲。而如果他們是認真的,我又真的take offer.

IT 男朋友聽罷不是以然:「喂你的 priority 是我。你人工在女仔黎講很高了。」

大男人呀大男人。

咁睇下公司propose先定__先囉。

嘿。大型有趣的項目我一直有興趣。



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星期二, 9月 06, 2011

911

我是個惹火也容易生是非的人,我身邊的男人一定要夠膽色有見識,不然吃不住我之餘自己先累得半死。

初認識他時嘛他有點腼腆。我當時心裡疑惑,咦你得唔得架。不過我色字行頭,見人身形高大肌肉流麗,便一試無妨。

我相信背後眞的有雙手在推動這段關係的。我本來輕骨頭,和男性朋友繞手倚他們的肩是等閒。認識他時沒有這樣的事,但不知恁地忽然就打得火熱起來。嘿!

911時我和小丑先生正在公園漫步,突然接到ah fan的電話叫我快點回家,world trade centre 倒下了!

現在我知道我的IT 男朋友其時正在下城上班,目睹一切的不幸。我聽了他的述說,很是哀矜。我想抱抱獨自走在滿天麈土上默默承受事情心裡壓滿低氣壓的他。如果時光機存在,我想回到911這一天去陪在你身邊走。

而你,可能是爸爸給我的一份禮物。

星期四, 9月 01, 2011

Open your chest

無論是在跳舞或做瑜珈時,導師都會叫我打開。打開,打開自己。

不開心時更需要打開,不要把肩膊縮起來。

只不過是事前不曉得大陸在正日放假,沒有設想周道,我就不開心了。

我對自己已經沒有什麼要求的了,但仍然是不開心。由此可見律人律己以至奉行完美主義的人的痛苦。

唉。

我直頭想撼頭埋牆。